The Fisher and the Addict

Addiction starts off with this hook—

That there is this worm that you are hungering after…

and, If you lured into biting at it: congrat’s… you ‘ve been had…

and, If the Fisherman is stronger than your “inner master”…

Then he already has you reeled into his vessel,
slipping around spastically…dying to jump out,
‘lest you are seconds away from becoming supper. […]

The Fisher and the Addict

Addiction starts off with this hook---

That there is this worm that you are hungering after…

and, If you lured into biting at it: congrat’s… you ‘ve been had…

and, If the Fisherman is stronger than your “inner master”…

Then he already has you reeled into his vessel, 
slipping around spastically…dying to jump out, 
‘lest you are seconds away from becoming supper.

M. L. Michael 
05/01/11






About…

a match made in misery

Misery loves company,
and Misery loves a relationship even more.

A girl, pretty on the cursory eyes,
falls in love with a boy, sweet with the cosmetic lies.

Misery loves it when he slaps her around,
rather with his words, or with his fists,
and Misery loves it even more when she shuffles back, puffy-eyes apologizing,
for whatever it is she did, or didn’t do; she’d definitely do it right this time. […]

A Match Made In Misery

Misery loves company,
and Misery loves a relationship even more.

A girl, pretty on the cursory eyes,
falls in love with a boy, sweet with the cosmetic lies.

Misery loves it when he slaps her around,
rather with his words, or with his fists,
and Misery loves it even more when she shuffles back, puffy-eyes apologizing,
for whatever it is she did, or didn’t do; she’d definitely do it right this time.

Misery loves it when she threatens suicide for the umpteenth time,
and annoyed, the boyfriend mocks her for her “juvenile-theatrics” 
which Misery it finds hilarious, because now this guy is racing to the hospital, 
…because he’s listed as her one and only emergency contact…

Misery loves it when she doesn’t return any of his calls,
and the betrayal he feels by the breaking of the leash.
Misery finds it the most amusing indeed,
When he confronts her at her friend’s party
…and ends up kicked out, frothing obscenities at the mouth.

The boy loves the girl who loathes herself, 
and the girl loves the boy who loathes all else.
Misery finds this union to be a match made in a misery:
     The girl who thinks she found a rough boy, 
     who only needs her brand of loving,
     and the boy who thinks he found an easy girl, 
     who only needs his right brand of screwing..

Misery becomes so boringly-depressed when they are at their best behavior,
when their love fits perfect, like a puzzle of a Monet masterpiece,
Misery can’t help but rage at the mundane, Zoloft, relationship. 

But, don’t despair, there’s always despair, with this particular match.
Their friction inevitable starts increasing,
And now Misery is nowhere nearer to a greater indulgence,
than the anticipation of this couple becoming a ‘ticking time-bomb’, 
ready for an explosion that Reality-TV finds brings in the ratings. 
	
So, Misery never cares rather the couple blows apart, or simply breaks up,
Because, almost always, someone’s self-esteem will fault and quake, 
and the whole, raucous, dance will resume, 
abrasive, like a song, out of tune and stuck on repeat.



Misery will be waiting at their crossroads,
where the two perfectly broken two tend to match up,
convincing themselves, that this time, things will work out.

Yes, Misery loves company great…
But Misery loves couples the most.

02/25/11
M. L. Michael 


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suicide; the atom bomb

When their life is taken by the best (self) kept secret,
an Atom Bomb is Dropped,
and everything they ever are, and everything they ever would be,
is gone in a phosphorus-flash…\in an ignited-instant/…
there’s nothing left but the smoldering crater: a reminder, of an echo
of everything they ever were…and everything they never will be… […]

Suicide; the Atom Bomb
(death is hardest for the living; a post traumatic suicide disaster)



When their life is taken by the best (self) kept secret,
an Atom Bomb is Dropped,
and everything they ever are, and everything they ever would be,
is gone in a phosphorus-flash…\in an ignited-instant/… 
there’s nothing left but the smoldering crater: a reminder, of an echo
of everything they ever were…and everything they never will be…

All around the crater, 
stumble the shellshocked-survivors – 
beleaguered by their beloved, these family and friends
are left with infinite questions on their minds,
and zero answers in their hearts,
wondering: what they might or should have done, 
to save what might/what should have been…

                          Call it: Post Traumatic Suicide Disaster.
This grasping for closure, like the grasping of straws…
…In a world where all it took was *just one more straw* 
to break their special one’s spirit for good and gone…

If anyone, unfortunate enough, is left to stare at such an empty, empty, crater,
They tend to beg for some kind of epiphany to enlighten the whys…
or they tend to pray for some kind of answer to fall from the skies… 

When staring at this lonely, lonely crater,
It’s only the silence that can remain fulfilled…

Because really, 
what answers are there in a crater?

12/27/10
M. L, Michael






About…

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 800-273-8255

Please call or contact someone if you are having thoughts of suicide.

Talk before you act. There is always someone willing to listen. (like me)

A *hiccup* Sonnet

Booze is there to make it bearable,
Liquor’s there to dull the pain quicker.
So here’s a drink to shoo the angels away.
And here’s a drink to give the demons their play.

Let this one be for all my friends –
Who guide the hand of this beer-brained-dozer, […]

A *hiccup* Sonnet

Booze is there to make it bearable,
Liquor’s there to dull the pain quicker.
So here’s a drink to shoo the angels away.
And here’s a drink to give the demons their play.

Let this one be for all my friends –
Who guide the hand of this beer-brained-dozer,
And let this one be for all my family –
Who bear the crash of this rum-filled-saucer.

…And let the rest be for me…
…The more deservin’ of the three!
Because each drink is part of my down-payment,
For the part of life I’ll folly to call my rent.
…
So, there’s a drink for every affliction –
But what is there for this drunk’s deflection?

10/12/10
M. L. Michael 



About…

This isn’t really a sonnet…but… ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Here ya go anyway. It’s a drunk sonnet.

my rickety-crickety (broken) back

Racked by the racket
of my rickety-crickety (broken) back
I’ll…blind-baby-grab… for anything transportive,

That is, I’ll see your Crown and Coke, and raise you
a midnight toke, I’ll see your Seagram and Seven,
and call it with these two little pills prescribing heaven.[…]

my rickety-crickety (broken) back

Racked by the racket 
of my rickety-crickety (broken) back
I’ll…blind-baby-grab… for anything transportive,   
That is, I’ll see your Crown and Coke, and raise you
a midnight toke, I’ll see your Seagram and Seven, 
and call it with these two little pills prescribing heaven.

Wrecked by the wreckage
of my worn-torn (broken) back
I’ll… come-humbling on my knees, and in your arms,
Meaning, I’ll sing your song, if you’ll right my wrong,
I’ll swear your good-god name, if you can take away
my god-damn pain.

Heckled by the hell
of my helter-skelter (broken) back
I’ll… cry-scribbling some heart-soaked words.
What I mean is, I’ll try-fiddling some poetry-steeped 
meaning from a blood-soaked world.     

Racked by the racket
of my rickety-crickety (broken) back
I’ll… blind-baby-seek for anything transcendent,
That is, I’ll see your chanting mantra, and raise you
to bodhisattva, I’ll see your hours of nirvana seeking mediation, 
and call it with a day of Woodstock likened celebration.

M. L. Michael 
05-03-08- <---> 05-10-10-

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she died afraid for my soul

She died afraid for my soul…
She went to her deathbed thinking – I would be lost to her forever,
doomed to writhe for eternity in the fiery agony of sinners and nonbelievers.

She loved me as much as any blood could….yet…but…because I didn’t believe,
she tortured herself with the concept of Damnation and I – […]

She died afraid for my soul…
She went to her deathbed thinking – I would be lost to her forever,
doomed to writhe for eternity in the fiery agony of sinners and nonbelievers.

She loved me as much as any blood could….yet…but…because I didn’t believe,
she tortured herself with the concept of Damnation and I – 
of her beloved’s blood boiling in the rivers of Hades, 
forever separated from her and the love of her savior’s light.

She died with that burning image. 

Leaving me with the tragic guilt  - 
Of being condemned for a crime I couldn’t help but commit… 


M. L. Michael 
01/05/10

About…

Depressed Ppl Have Depressed Perceptions

In all quiet, timid, confidentiality she reveled to me
that rainstorms depress her; they fill her up with woe.

Incredulous, I implored her to explore her reasoning,
reveal to me the method behind her sadness…

Gradually she surrendered, slowly she began,
“First off, they are always so dark, they’re always so dreary.
You can tell it is storming outside because daylight fights back poorly,[…]

Depressed Ppl Have  Depressed Perceptions.

In all quiet, timid, confidentiality she reveled to me
that rainstorms depress her; they fill her up with woe.

Incredulous, I implored her to explore her reasoning,
reveal to me the method behind her sadness…

Gradually she surrendered, slowly she began,
“First off, they are always so dark, they’re always so dreary.
 You can tell it is storming outside because daylight fights back poorly,
 the world you see becomes blanketed by a bluesy song.
 Then – there’s this deathly still that permeates like its own special cloud,
 Birds cease their chattery song, insects cease their chittery call…
 Everyone’s scared into silence at the raging potential of their Mother Nature.

 Because, of course, when it rains – it always pours..
 as if Nature is scorned, and her punish is downpour,
 so much sometimes, it’s as if she’s telling us to drown…
  ‘Here – you pagans, you want my lifeblood, 
   you take it! You choke it down!
   How pathetic you jump with fright
   …at the snap of my finger!!
   How sad you quiver
   when I scorch the earth with my stinger!!

   And after it passes – there’s always this moment of recovery
   Those living must gather their wits and their things
   Shake of this saturation – try and salvage themselves
   For the next storm that comes – that always comes…

M, L. Michael
7/23/09

   


 


About…

graveyard hopping on 6th street

I heard stories of a place
Where one could meet fellow lonely ghosts…
Where spirits drowned in spirits and
Every ghost shared what made them go Boo…

All of these lonely ghosts…
So many sad ghosts…[…]

Graveyard Hopping on 6th Street


I heard stories of a place
Where one could meet fellow lonely ghosts…
Where spirits drowned in spirits and
Every ghost shared what made them go Boo…

All of these lonely ghosts…
So many sad ghosts…
All of them lingering ghosts…

Each one haunting a familiar sight…
Each one moaning a tragic plight…

Ah – this gathering of ghosts,
They’ve delayed the haunting of their gravesite,
To haunt a different kind of graveyard,
           …a different kind of loss…
Instead of lamenting over headstone inscriptions,
They’ll lament over half-empty glasses,
And the finality of the bartender’s last call…
 
Oh – these sad, lonely ghosts, 
All they ever wanted was another ghost to haunt with…
Someone they can share with a séance…
Someone they can share with the scare of Death…

Really, what ghost could say no?


M. L. Michael 
6/16/09


About…

the titanic generation

With streamers, noise-makers, confetti, and champagne,
We imply the integrity of our combined technological efforts;
A sound ship to cross the Cold, Frozen, Wasteland Waters,
And arrive with fanfare in a Melting-Pot-City-of-Ideas.

So full of ourselves, we Worship our Progress
only to fall victim to Hubris, our Devil-By-Creation.[…]

The Titanic Generation

With streamers, noise-makers, confetti, and champagne, 
We imply the integrity of our combined technological efforts;
A sound ship to cross the Cold, Frozen, Wasteland Waters, 
And arrive with fanfare in a Melting-Pot-City-of-Ideas.

So full of ourselves, we Worship our Progress
only to fall victim to Hubris, our Devil-By-Creation.
Too Proud were we, to see the Arctic for the Icebergs,
or the Structural Integrity for the Lapses in Judgment. 

…looking back, such a disaster appears inevitable.


/05/26/09
M. L. Michael






About…

i cannot turn on the tv

I cannot turn on the TV,
I cannot open my web browser,
I cannot pick up a newspaper or a magazine,
and I cannot go out into public,
without hearing some form of Fear being spread. […]

I cannot turn on the TV,
I cannot open my web browser,
I cannot pick up a newspaper or a magazine, 
and I cannot go out into public, 
without hearing some form of Fear being spread.

Fear is a virus, 
and everyone that is infected feels this inherent urge to share and propagate.
Although everyone may differ on exact ideology
they all maintain the principle of Fear,
Fear of the Unknown, 
or Fear of what’s Different. 

I don’t have to go far to find one afraid.
Even the broadest shouldered man 
could shiver my bones with tales of conspiracies.. 
and even the shiniest aura’d man 
could shiver my spirit with prophecies of the armageddon…

*

Give me the company of those joyous,
and fearful only when 
fear becomes the only thing left…

03/09/09
M. L. Michael 







 

  

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