Depressed Ppl Have Depressed Perceptions

In all quiet, timid, confidentiality she reveled to me
that rainstorms depress her; they fill her up with woe.

Incredulous, I implored her to explore her reasoning,
reveal to me the method behind her sadness…

Gradually she surrendered, slowly she began,
“First off, they are always so dark, they’re always so dreary.
You can tell it is storming outside because daylight fights back poorly,[…]

Depressed Ppl Have  Depressed Perceptions.

In all quiet, timid, confidentiality she reveled to me
that rainstorms depress her; they fill her up with woe.

Incredulous, I implored her to explore her reasoning,
reveal to me the method behind her sadness…

Gradually she surrendered, slowly she began,
“First off, they are always so dark, they’re always so dreary.
 You can tell it is storming outside because daylight fights back poorly,
 the world you see becomes blanketed by a bluesy song.
 Then – there’s this deathly still that permeates like its own special cloud,
 Birds cease their chattery song, insects cease their chittery call…
 Everyone’s scared into silence at the raging potential of their Mother Nature.

 Because, of course, when it rains – it always pours..
 as if Nature is scorned, and her punish is downpour,
 so much sometimes, it’s as if she’s telling us to drown…
  ‘Here – you pagans, you want my lifeblood, 
   you take it! You choke it down!
   How pathetic you jump with fright
   …at the snap of my finger!!
   How sad you quiver
   when I scorch the earth with my stinger!!

   And after it passes – there’s always this moment of recovery
   Those living must gather their wits and their things
   Shake of this saturation – try and salvage themselves
   For the next storm that comes – that always comes…

M, L. Michael
7/23/09

   


 


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you, the god damning drunk…

would you hear me out,
if all i ask is for something small,
would it even matter if..
all i ask is for one day without the thirst,
one day without waking up thinking
about that desire for the drink
that steadily thrives into a must.[…]

you, the god damning drunk
(are not very eloquent) 

would you hear me out,
if all i ask is for something small,
would it even matter if..
all i ask is for one day without the thirst,
one day without waking up thinking 
about that desire for the drink 
that steadily thrives into a must.

if you would grant me that one wish,
so that i may own that one day,
i’d use it to arrange myself straight,
save whatever aches I must endure.
i’d gather up all my ducks first,
save whatever damage their pecking ensues.
i’d gather all my shit into one corner,
save whatever stench I couldn’t wash away.
if you would grant me that one wish,
i’d stop wasting, if only for one day
i’d stop wanting.

but that’s not possible, 
even if you could, i doubt you would;
lest i find my own damn way 
out of the dark..

ya know what, fuck you, 
for letting me entertain this idea,
for letting me be tonight’s entertainment,
with my drunkards jig, 
and my equally sillier speech..
yes, i may be saying this with a slur,
but my meaning still rings through.

yeah, so, fuck you 
for replying with your silence
as heavy as a look in the mirror..
because i know what it means
without having to know what it means..
(cuz’ this pain has to mean something,
right?)

yea, so fuck you,
you, the god damning drunk,
who needs to sleep it off.

\\08-17-06
M. L. Michael 



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ufo.ufo.

ufo.
ufo.
please, take me from
my manufactured hellhole.
please, abduct me from
this circus tent hell-show. […]

ufo.ufo. 


ufo.
ufo.
please, take me from
my manufactured hellhole.
please, abduct me from
this circus tent hell-show. 

ufo.
ufo.
analyze me into the ground,
make me dirty and unrecognizable.
probe me for the answers, 
on why i keep getting fucked.

ufo.
ufo.
maybe you heard me 
decrying my tears,
lost under the midnight whiskey
drunk against the fields of years, 

ufo.
ufo.
maybe you took a note from god
and decided it was better to ignore
than stick your all-knowing-glowing finger,
in my business to implore.

ufo.
i want to be saved,
but i don’t want to save myself…
ufo.
i want to be changed,
but i don’t want to change myself…

06-26-06
M. L. Michael 








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everlasting spirit-stompers

doc’s words are it. the undoing, everlasting
spirit-stompers that i’ll swallow. struggling.
until they’re dissolved or i’m absorbed, idontknow.
until whatever the consequence; i’m absolved.

doc’s words are it. the undoing, everlasting
spirit-stompers that i’ll swallow. struggling.
until they’re dissolved or i’m absorbed, idontknow.
until whatever the consequence; i’m absolved. 

03-10-06
M. L. Michael 




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A Titan’s burden

It began with Atlas complaining; like
a crackling whip of God’s gavel crashing, or
the preamble to a symphony of rolling thunder.

“The World on my shoulders, has become
no greater than The Cross on my back.”
He spits out those words like bile coming up.
And casts his eyes astray to avoid the splatter. […]

A Titan’s Burden

It began with Atlas complaining; like
a crackling whip of God’s gavel crashing, or
the preamble to a symphony of rolling thunder.

“The World on my shoulders, has become
no greater than The Cross on my back.”
He spits out those words like bile coming up.
And casts his eyes astray to avoid the splatter. 

…as Atlas fights the weariness seeping in;
He roars; his patience wears thin
long after his muscles charred away; 
He curses; and postmarks damnations 
that never get sent for fear of blasphemy, 
and any new consequences he must carry.  
	
M. L. Michael 
08-03-05

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They saved a child with a lie

They had words, like soldiers on a mission
To march past teeth without looking back,
To march past integrity, without even looking at all.
They speak only in stalemate; with each party locking
Horns, sounding off…in snorts and stares…
So they can be owned like boxes unwrapped,
By possessions we sought, oh, forgive us we fought… […]

They had words, like soldiers on a mission
To march past teeth without looking back, 
To march past integrity, without even looking at all.
They speak only in stalemate; with each party locking
Horns, sounding off…in snorts and stares…
So they can be owned like boxes unwrapped,
By possessions we sought, oh, forgive us we fought…

They’ll reach the top…
They’ll reach in deep and with a heavy arm, 
To bear the brunt of a loaded sentence, 
Cocked back like the head of a horse.
Prescribing a Trojan move –an entendre in the midst, 
And a poison portrait, reflecting steam turned toxic
They’ll inflict about their own diagnosis,
Prescribing trickery to become prognosis, 
And using whispered prayer like subtle hypnosis, 
Forcing –by verse alone may the word be true!
They’ll say, I’ll say, so rehearsed in this way
So they, may not say, the reality of this day.

They promise obscurity –more answers to forever,
Assuring the day, that night can never come,
Instead expect pervasive sunshine with only hopeful clouds!
(With a zero percent chance of thunder they add in perspiration)
A smile-grin, a smile-grin, all in all, this only adds to chagrin, 
Oh weatherman, oh healing-man, how can I know-
The world you present, is the world I’ve been bestowed?

M. L. Michael 
05.20.04

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Winter again

Ice claims this body,
An empty cold spreads like fire.
No motions are made
To halt the coup d’état,
Just mindless submission
As winter devours the sun.[…]

Ice claims this body,
An empty cold spreads like fire.
No motions are made
To halt the coup d'état,
Just mindless submission
As winter devours the sun.

The mind is tired of the spirit,
Had enough of useless loving,
Vain attempts to breathe anew.
It welcomes the frozen state,
A trip away from the life
That constantly reminds it of failure.

Hopes lie frozen in the gutter,
Thrown aside by the north wind.
Vaguely missed by a shivering child,
Who sadly feels at home
In this winter wasteland. 

M. L. Michael
01·24·02

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Weatherman

Weatherman weatherman
Why is this my forecast
What has happened in the past
That leads this rough road ahead?

Purity is destroyed
Leaving the way for impression
Swimming in it’s wake; depression
Well being is forgotten
Lost beneath the chaos of ills
Giving you the shattered remains[…]

Weatherman weatherman
Why is this my forecast
What has happened in the past
That leads this rough road ahead?

Purity is destroyed
Leaving the way for impression
Swimming in it's wake; depression
Well being is forgotten
Lost beneath the chaos of ills
Giving you the shattered remains

Weatherman weatherman
Can nothing break the rule
Doomed to miss the love of a Sun
Victim to the tormenting rainfall

Too far beneath the earth
Darkness eats away at hope
Your ladder is an apparition
Linked to the invisible strength
You so blindly search for

Weatherman weatherman
All I want is Summer
Taken away from my youth
Before I could raise a word
All I want is Sunshine
Flooding me with it's radiance
Drying up the lake of tears
Weatherman weatherman
Pray for me in the end

M. L. Michael 
09·26·01

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