The Cycle (of Pain Pills) //
So the cycle goes…
You’re hurting more, so you take more pain medicine. “Surely, I’ll be hurting less in the future.” Is your reasonig. Or – “That’s a problem for future me!” is your answer. Really, it doesn’t matter what you tell yourself. All that matters is an end to the pain.
And then there you are, a week before you medicine is to be refilled, either almost out or completely out.
So you ration.
You go thru withdrawal.
Cold sweats. Unescapable aches,
Jesus Christ, give me a bullet or give me a pill.
You make it thru (you always do),
you get your medicine refilled.
And you hold it together long enough until the next time you break down and take an extra.
Because surely, you’ll be hurting less in the future… or – that’s a problem for future me.
…So the cycle goes.
05/16/2021
M. L. Michael
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